looking for first time

hi all, im in a straight relationship but like wearing her panties when shes not around and fantasising of being dressed like a little girl, and being made to suck cock(s?) and get being fucked. ive given head a couple of times but never tasted their cum, and ive been fucked once. ive wanked numerous times over the thought of being dressed up and used like this and am dying to try it. if you have clothes for me all the better. discretion is absolutely needed. pref at yours or in hotel, you wont be dissappointed. im shy but lose all my inhibitions pretty fast.